Thor: The Dark World (liveblog) [x]
So, I hate everything that has ever existed now, pretty much. Thanks, movie. Fuck feelings, what have they ever done for me! Only bad things!
DEEP BREATHS. I’m not sure how to even begin talking about this because it’s a lot like the end of the first movie, where I’m getting all worked up and emotional at Tom’s performance, it’s very touching, but it’s not waterworks for all that I think he’s brilliant at it. It’s not until Chris’ face, every time, that I start tearing up, because he is so incredibly solid and good in this role that he can make me cry over this character.
Every little touch in this scene is perfection. From the way Thor puts a hand on the back of Loki’s neck to support him and draw him closer to the way Thor comforts Loki, tells him that it’s all right, says in that heartbrokenly fond voice that, oh, Loki, you didn’t listen. And it makes me think, how many times must Thor have told Loki to be careful? Because Loki would always be trying to prove himself, to be more like Thor, despite that it wasn’t his strength? How many times would Loki get in over his head, get wounded in a way that was dangerous, because he didn’t listen to Thor telling him that it was dangerous and he should look out for himself better? How many times did Thor go into protective big brother mode? So many times Thor told him and now Loki didn’t listen and look what happened.
And Loki shaking and shivering, babbling out that he’s a fool, he’s a fool, that he’s sorry, he’s sorry, and Thor says it’s all right, he immediately pulls himself together for Loki’s sake, he’s strong enough to send Loki off in the right way in those last moments. You can see how dearly he loves Loki, how this is the little brother that’s been by his side for a thousand years, this is his Loki in this moment, Thor sees him again and this is the Loki he knows. This is Loki Odinson, to Thor’s eyes, for all that Loki didn’t do this for Odin, this is still the brother Thor had lost sight of.
You can see how much Thor loves him here, how Thor wants Loki to stay with him, how much this is his little brother and Thor doesn’t want to lose him to Kurse, too. Not again, not just after their mother, not when he just found Loki again.
I keep thinking of just how long they’ve known each other, how the past two years are such a tiny, tiny fraction of their lives. They’ve known each other for a thousand years. I keep thinking of Selvig’s relationship with Jane, that he’s probably known her for, what? Maybe 30 years, being generous? And look how protective he is over her, how much he cares about her and looks out for her. Imagine that only more than thirty times that, knowing someone and loving them and having them in your life for that amount of time.
As much as Thor cares about other people, his new friends on Midgard, how much he cares about Jane, that can never be the same as someone he’s loved for a literal thousand years. There’s so much history between them in this moment, so very much time, and yet it’s still only a tiny part of what their life spans should be. Sometimes it seems like forever, that when you’ve known someone for 20 years, since you were both babies, but you’re supposed to know them for another 80 years, you’re supposed to have that time, because you know that you want every day with them in your life.
They were supposed to get 4,000 more years together, even if they had troubles, they would have figured it out. Even now, they were working their shit out, Loki was coming around just a tiny bit, Thor had seen the brother he knew again, he sees him RIGHT HERE, this is the brother he knows, Loki is STILL IN THERE, but he’s dying and it wasn’t supposed to be now at all.
But Thor still holds strong for Loki, tries to comfort him in his last moments, he’ll tell father what Loki did here and how brave and noble he was, because it’s not just about their father’s approval, but about family, that Loki will be reconciled with all of them, that Loki will be part of them again. That is why that line breaks my heart, because Thor is saying that Loki will be family again. Because he’s trying to send Loki off as best he can, to give Loki the best death he can.
And Loki’s line, rejection of their father, but also opening up to how he did it for other reasons, so it doesn’t take away from that this is still the brother Loki knew, even if he’s changed somewhat. I hold with the idea that Loki did it for Frigga—just as Thor offered it to him, vengeance for her—but I think there’s a lot of how it was indeed for Thor.
What would Thor tell Odin? Loki died fighting Kurse. Why did Loki fight Kurse?
His reasons are for Frigga and Thor both, because Loki does still love them and he is laid honest and open here, this was filmed as being entirely genuine, this was meant to be Loki’s redemption, even if later events change his fate, I still view it in that vein. Loki thought he was dying, I don’t buy the theories that he planned this or faked his death, so his words here are the ones that he truly would say to Thor as his last.
And he’s sorry.
Now, excuse me, I have to go lay down in a puddle of my own tears.